when i'm with you it's just like light
like all the walls are windows and
the sun shines day and night

like where the air and the water meet
such a powerful softness and
the ocean grows warm and sweet

your love is where the elements collide
you look at me softly
and i'm strong, i'm true, i'm wild

you are the "you" of my life.
all my songs were preludes
all of my childish wants were so
i'd be ready for you
so i'd be ready for you

i love the quiet of the world at night
the streetlight reveals what is real and
leaves every line defined

and I know you're happy with what you've got
i can feel your arms around me
even when they're not

what came before was so this could be
knowing you're out there
somewhere, loving me

you are the "you" of my life
all my songs were preludes
all of my childish wants were so
i'd be ready for you
so i'd be ready for you

sunlight
can turn the pale to gold
my life
is gold

because you are the "you" of my life.
all my songs were preludes
all of my childish wants were so
i'd be ready for you
now i'm ready for you

i used to be better at everything.

i've got a biological clock thing going on lately, it's rather alarming.

video of me!

we are islands

a love song about science:

We are islands that rise from a vast and unending sea
We are order in spite of a universe of entropy
we have secret codes
written in our flesh and bones

We are fools with minds for intelligence, we forget to fly
We are fueled by the fiery element hanging in the sky
we are made of motes
nothing stands alone

We are learning from the beginning what our hearts have always known

sound and light, motion and flow
we are more than we know

In a pattern of endless complexity, there is calm, quiet and peace
The same forces that hold fast the galaxies draw you to me
hold me tight, and never let go
your heart is my home

stranger take two

i liked the chorus of this one but not the verses, so i took another crack at it today.

i woke up this morning and you were a stranger to me
you were a stranger to me
it was the strangest thing
what was before was like it had never been
like it had never, ever been
you were a stranger to me

there was a time when i
could guess your heart's desires
and i'd confide in you the secrets of my deepest dreams

but how far things have gone
they've been wrong for far too long
beyond the point of no return to how they used to be

i woke up this morning and you were a stranger to me
you were a stranger to me
it was the strangest thing
what was before was like it had never been
like it had never, ever been
you were a stranger to me

i thought we were the same
and we'd always stay that way
but growing up means change in ways i wasn't planning for

now i try to say hello,
but your eyes drop to the floor
and my poor heart is sorry that it couldn't love you more

~banjo solo or something~

honesty as a policy is often ill advised
and i wish i never told you the plans i had devised
there's nothing i can say
you wouldn't believe me anyway
but i meant to mean the world to you
and the world got in the way

i woke up this morning and you were a stranger to me
you were a stranger to me
it was the strangest thing
what was before was like it had never been
like it had never, ever been
you were a stranger to me

i have been dating adam for 9 months today. that is crazy. i haven't blogged much in that time. i guess when you are happy / in love / stoked about life / also a bit busy with school, you don't really feel like whining on the internet.

i wanna write some more songs, but i don't know when that will happen.

saw heartwood slacks and the yarnells the other day in a church. it was pretty awesome. i get john g songs stuck in my head constantly. he doesn't write like other people and it's damn catchy stuff. the yarnies are great too - i can't believe how tight the vocals are. sometimes even watching them with my eyes i can't distinguish between the girls' voices, they sound so similar to one another. i do sigh a bit at the impracticality of these enormous bands though. at the very best they will have a rough time making enough to cover their expenses, and at the worst... well that's enough on that topic, heh.

school is going very well. i dropped chemistry and kinda feel like a n00b for doing so, but my prof was truly terrible and un-explainy and i lost a bunch of time last month from being in a play so i couldn't catch up. i didn't want to get a 70 or something, haha. but everything else is awesome. i got marks in the 90s for my 2 3-credit courses last term, and i have been getting good marks on tests and things since then. i wonder how hard nursing courses are going to be next year.

well, it is reading week and i better do some research for my 2 papers which are due next week instead of procrastinating like i always do.

school

a cruel irony: drinking booze leads to depression, which leads to wanting to drink more booze.

i shouldn't have gone out last night. if i didn't feel so sad i may have been able more easily deal with my problem today - that is i have an overwhelming amount of schoolwork to do, but not enough time to do it in. oh and also i misread the instructions for my 20 page paper due this week, and i was supposed to have read an entire book, additional to the one i am prepared to write about.

in 2010, i have cried more for school-related causes than i ever have before. this is my third emotional breakdown this year! i think it is because i am trying to do my very best, to get into a competitive program that i think will solve my financial woes - which by the way are getting a bit out of hand. but it's not only that. it is that i care to learn, and i care to do really well, just to prove to myself that i can.

the only things that make sense in life:
love, music and chemistry, haha.

things never stop changing, there is no period of rest. when you see that, you can finally be at ease. you're not waiting for that time when you can sigh and put up your feet. you're already there, you rest on the crest of a wave. and then you swim some more. swimming is beautiful.

and i am in love. so very much. the point of my life where it is impossible to accept people as people is over. i can finally love what is there to love. i am real. and so in love it is frightening, maddening. joy brings with it the possibility of not-joy, which is scary. but no matter what happens, this is happening. it is real, and it is good.
so good.

dunno about you

but i have an overwhelming urge to run away from my problems at... pretty much all times.

i am so glad i found you
i needed you
not to save me from despair
but to complete my happiness

sarah harmer and the new pornographers in october in halifax. i am scratching two bands off my (ever shrinking) list of Bands I Must See Before I Die.

this year has been the awesomest. for music, for relationships, for not being depressed, for having fun and swimming. i am so happy right now.

i want to kiss you again
with the salt still on our lips
and lay in your arms as our breath
comes rolling in waves like the ones
in inverness

these, these are my walls
painted blue
and holding me tightly between them
and this, this is my love
it is my own
and it turns my blood cold
how much i've grown

the sand, it stretches out
and the waves continue to pound
no matter how scared i get
the sun will always beat down

sarah sings summer songs
and the sun on the harbour shines
i'm speeding around every turn
and i finally feel like i'll be alright
i'll be just fine

i want to kiss you again

what it's really like

to work at a music store

your love is my love.

thanks, kitty.

DiegoStocco - Bassoforte

TV advertising - sexist?

i don't know what this is
but i hope it continues
tell me where did you come from,
and do you ever think of me?

because i think of you
all the time
and i don't want to be the fool
but i feel like i'm gonna be

i was feeling so good
i wasn't even looking
and then, there you were
and your arm slipped around me

now i think of you
all the time
i don't want to be the fool
do you think you have time for me?

if i could show you who i am
i am sure you would like what you see
because you are what you love
but there's so much to love i don't know where to begin

you give me butterflies
you are just the right size
c'mon now, sugar
look into my eyes

we are all made of stars

and atoms.

i am aglow

i am not sure exactly what this is, but i hope it continues.

This Week in Unnecessary Censorship - LOST Edition

this is amazing.

ENVISION : Step into the sensory box from SUPERBIEN on Vimeo.

http://www.neave.com/
hours of entertainment.

How to give the perfect man hug

i don't feel like writing a whole lot just at this moment, but i must commemorate the fact that last night maxwell's double booked my songwriter's circle with an elton john tribute act, and it ended up being the best night ever.

scott battles green garbage truck turtles

it happened as the light hit my eyes after reflecting off the ocean
and shining through the window of the bar we always frequent
and made zach and his new band into silhouettes
i couldn't see them but i could hear them

it happened again when ryan came over
and we chatted for a while but then he showed me what he was working on
it was the same as the time when scott played at the coffee shop
and a line of green garbage trucks marched by outside the window
like a parade of turtles

green garbage truck turtles
it was awesome.

i find myself surrounded by extraordinary friends and
if this world broke my heart i bet you'll be the ones to mend it
lift up your voices and we'll all sing together

when breagh opened up her mouth that day in my apartment
when carolyn and i just sing as loud as we can go
bob gill, you know you're a super hero and every time you play a solo
that's when it happens again

it happens every time colette reaches for those high notes
on hearing dan's voice coming out toward me from the crowd
or the boys, bathed in blue light glinting off the chandelier
above adam's head and i sat there laughing out loud
and everyone thought i was crazy

i guess i am a little bit crazy
so are you, though

i look around this little room
at harry and hector playing so loud
no overhead lighting now.

and kristen dan and brett
we can do four-part if we try
(though we'd need about 10 mics)
and i love you god damn burkes