little ol' 3 chord me

2011-09-29T09:56:00.008-03:00

when i'm with you it's just like light
like all the walls are windows and
the sun shines day and night

like where the air and the water meet
such a powerful softness and
the ocean grows warm and sweet

your love is where the elements collide
you look at me softly
and i'm strong, i'm true, i'm wild

you are the "you" of my life.
all my songs were preludes
all of my childish wants were so
i'd be ready for you
so i'd be ready for you

i love the quiet of the world at night
the streetlight reveals what is real and
leaves every line defined

and I know you're happy with what you've got
i can feel your arms around me
even when they're not

what came before was so this could be
knowing you're out there
somewhere, loving me

you are the "you" of my life
all my songs were preludes
all of my childish wants were so
i'd be ready for you
so i'd be ready for you

sunlight
can turn the pale to gold
my life
is gold

because you are the "you" of my life.
all my songs were preludes
all of my childish wants were so
i'd be ready for you
now i'm ready for you

2011-05-31T14:45:00.001-03:00

i used to be better at everything.

2011-04-11T19:09:00.000-03:00

i've got a biological clock thing going on lately, it's rather alarming.

video of me!

2011-03-31T14:57:00.001-03:00

2011-03-21T15:29:00.001-03:00

we are islands

2011-03-02T16:31:00.002-04:00

a love song about science:

We are islands that rise from a vast and unending sea
We are order in spite of a universe of entropy
we have secret codes
written in our flesh and bones

We are fools with minds for intelligence, we forget to fly
We are fueled by the fiery element hanging in the sky
we are made of motes
nothing stands alone

We are learning from the beginning what our hearts have always known

sound and light, motion and flow
we are more than we know

In a pattern of endless complexity, there is calm, quiet and peace
The same forces that hold fast the galaxies draw you to me
hold me tight, and never let go
your heart is my home

stranger take two

2011-02-24T16:17:00.004-04:00

i liked the chorus of this one but not the verses, so i took another crack at it today.

i woke up this morning and you were a stranger to me
you were a stranger to me
it was the strangest thing
what was before was like it had never been
like it had never, ever been
you were a stranger to me

there was a time when i
could guess your heart's desires
and i'd confide in you the secrets of my deepest dreams

but how far things have gone
they've been wrong for far too long
beyond the point of no return to how they used to be

i woke up this morning and you were a stranger to me
you were a stranger to me
it was the strangest thing
what was before was like it had never been
like it had never, ever been
you were a stranger to me

i thought we were the same
and we'd always stay that way
but growing up means change in ways i wasn't planning for

now i try to say hello,
but your eyes drop to the floor
and my poor heart is sorry that it couldn't love you more

~banjo solo or something~

honesty as a policy is often ill advised
and i wish i never told you the plans i had devised
there's nothing i can say
you wouldn't believe me anyway
but i meant to mean the world to you
and the world got in the way

i woke up this morning and you were a stranger to me
you were a stranger to me
it was the strangest thing
what was before was like it had never been
like it had never, ever been
you were a stranger to me

2011-02-21T10:23:00.003-04:00

i have been dating adam for 9 months today. that is crazy. i haven't blogged much in that time. i guess when you are happy / in love / stoked about life / also a bit busy with school, you don't really feel like whining on the internet.

i wanna write some more songs, but i don't know when that will happen.

saw heartwood slacks and the yarnells the other day in a church. it was pretty awesome. i get john g songs stuck in my head constantly. he doesn't write like other people and it's damn catchy stuff. the yarnies are great too - i can't believe how tight the vocals are. sometimes even watching them with my eyes i can't distinguish between the girls' voices, they sound so similar to one another. i do sigh a bit at the impracticality of these enormous bands though. at the very best they will have a rough time making enough to cover their expenses, and at the worst... well that's enough on that topic, heh.

school is going very well. i dropped chemistry and kinda feel like a n00b for doing so, but my prof was truly terrible and un-explainy and i lost a bunch of time last month from being in a play so i couldn't catch up. i didn't want to get a 70 or something, haha. but everything else is awesome. i got marks in the 90s for my 2 3-credit courses last term, and i have been getting good marks on tests and things since then. i wonder how hard nursing courses are going to be next year.

well, it is reading week and i better do some research for my 2 papers which are due next week instead of procrastinating like i always do.

2010-11-27T19:49:00.001-04:00

school

2010-11-27T19:29:00.003-04:00

a cruel irony: drinking booze leads to depression, which leads to wanting to drink more booze.

i shouldn't have gone out last night. if i didn't feel so sad i may have been able more easily deal with my problem today - that is i have an overwhelming amount of schoolwork to do, but not enough time to do it in. oh and also i misread the instructions for my 20 page paper due this week, and i was supposed to have read an entire book, additional to the one i am prepared to write about.

in 2010, i have cried more for school-related causes than i ever have before. this is my third emotional breakdown this year! i think it is because i am trying to do my very best, to get into a competitive program that i think will solve my financial woes - which by the way are getting a bit out of hand. but it's not only that. it is that i care to learn, and i care to do really well, just to prove to myself that i can.

2010-11-14T16:30:00.002-04:00

the only things that make sense in life:
love, music and chemistry, haha.

things never stop changing, there is no period of rest. when you see that, you can finally be at ease. you're not waiting for that time when you can sigh and put up your feet. you're already there, you rest on the crest of a wave. and then you swim some more. swimming is beautiful.

and i am in love. so very much. the point of my life where it is impossible to accept people as people is over. i can finally love what is there to love. i am real. and so in love it is frightening, maddening. joy brings with it the possibility of not-joy, which is scary. but no matter what happens, this is happening. it is real, and it is good.
so good.

dunno about you

2010-09-16T16:49:00.003-03:00

but i have an overwhelming urge to run away from my problems at... pretty much all times.

2010-09-15T19:08:00.001-03:00

2010-08-30T15:24:00.002-03:00

i am so glad i found you
i needed you
not to save me from despair
but to complete my happiness

2010-08-25T11:54:00.002-03:00

sarah harmer and the new pornographers in october in halifax. i am scratching two bands off my (ever shrinking) list of Bands I Must See Before I Die.

this year has been the awesomest. for music, for relationships, for not being depressed, for having fun and swimming. i am so happy right now.

2010-08-12T20:39:00.005-03:00

i want to kiss you again
with the salt still on our lips
and lay in your arms as our breath
comes rolling in waves like the ones
in inverness

these, these are my walls
painted blue
and holding me tightly between them
and this, this is my love
it is my own
and it turns my blood cold
how much i've grown

the sand, it stretches out
and the waves continue to pound
no matter how scared i get
the sun will always beat down

sarah sings summer songs
and the sun on the harbour shines
i'm speeding around every turn
and i finally feel like i'll be alright
i'll be just fine

i want to kiss you again

what it's really like

2010-08-02T13:37:00.000-03:00

to work at a music store

2010-07-18T19:36:00.001-03:00

your love is my love.

thanks, kitty.

2010-07-18T08:53:00.001-03:00

DiegoStocco - Bassoforte

2010-06-26T16:16:00.000-03:00

2010-06-24T16:12:00.001-03:00

TV advertising - sexist?

2010-06-22T23:03:00.000-03:00

2010-06-22T11:14:00.000-03:00

2010-06-18T13:07:00.004-03:00

i don't know what this is
but i hope it continues
tell me where did you come from,
and do you ever think of me?

because i think of you
all the time
and i don't want to be the fool
but i feel like i'm gonna be

i was feeling so good
i wasn't even looking
and then, there you were
and your arm slipped around me

now i think of you
all the time
i don't want to be the fool
do you think you have time for me?

if i could show you who i am
i am sure you would like what you see
because you are what you love
but there's so much to love i don't know where to begin

you give me butterflies
you are just the right size
c'mon now, sugar
look into my eyes

2010-05-31T17:22:00.002-03:00

we are all made of stars

and atoms.

i am aglow

2010-05-24T13:24:00.001-03:00

i am not sure exactly what this is, but i hope it continues.

This Week in Unnecessary Censorship - LOST Edition

2010-05-23T13:37:00.000-03:00

this is amazing.

2010-05-19T16:25:00.002-03:00

2010-05-17T23:29:00.000-03:00

ENVISION : Step into the sensory box from SUPERBIEN on Vimeo.

2010-05-14T17:56:00.001-03:00

http://www.neave.com/
hours of entertainment.

How to give the perfect man hug

2010-05-12T18:41:00.000-03:00

2010-05-01T19:28:00.001-03:00

i don't feel like writing a whole lot just at this moment, but i must commemorate the fact that last night maxwell's double booked my songwriter's circle with an elton john tribute act, and it ended up being the best night ever.

scott battles green garbage truck turtles

2010-04-29T20:45:00.004-03:00

it happened as the light hit my eyes after reflecting off the ocean
and shining through the window of the bar we always frequent
and made zach and his new band into silhouettes
i couldn't see them but i could hear them

it happened again when ryan came over
and we chatted for a while but then he showed me what he was working on
it was the same as the time when scott played at the coffee shop
and a line of green garbage trucks marched by outside the window
like a parade of turtles

green garbage truck turtles
it was awesome.

i find myself surrounded by extraordinary friends and
if this world broke my heart i bet you'll be the ones to mend it
lift up your voices and we'll all sing together

when breagh opened up her mouth that day in my apartment
when carolyn and i just sing as loud as we can go
bob gill, you know you're a super hero and every time you play a solo
that's when it happens again

it happens every time colette reaches for those high notes
on hearing dan's voice coming out toward me from the crowd
or the boys, bathed in blue light glinting off the chandelier
above adam's head and i sat there laughing out loud
and everyone thought i was crazy

i guess i am a little bit crazy
so are you, though

i look around this little room
at harry and hector playing so loud
no overhead lighting now.

and kristen dan and brett
we can do four-part if we try
(though we'd need about 10 mics)
and i love you god damn burkes

2010-04-26T01:31:00.000-03:00

2010-04-25T18:45:00.001-03:00

if it was this world that broke my heart, i bet you'll be the ones to mend it.

guilty as charged

2010-04-16T14:22:00.001-03:00

i like this alot.

2010-04-12T10:45:00.001-03:00

you couldn't possibly know how i feel about you because i have no idea half the time myself.

you may as well be a figment of my imagination.

oddlyspecific.com

2010-04-07T09:22:00.003-03:00

2010-04-06T17:38:00.001-03:00

2010-04-01T09:04:00.000-03:00

the plague of teal and orange in recent movies.

2010-03-31T09:01:00.001-03:00

maybe it is time to stop putting things off.
maybe it's time to bite the bullet and change my life completely.

2010-03-29T16:18:00.002-03:00

i have rarely come across a quote that describes me as perfectly as this one from a mcsweeneys article:

"I have a mental malfunction in which the main way I approach enjoyment of any performance is through the fantasizing eyes of an introverted extrovert, as if I were the one up there performing, or the author of the piece being performed. Why, I could write a musical; I could write a play—I could write a book and read from it!"

this could not be much better

2010-03-22T17:35:00.002-03:00

this guy did piano improv on chatroulette and people kept mistaking him for ben folds. but then BEN FOLDS did it! it`s so good!

watch the original:

and then watch this:

2010-03-13T19:36:00.003-04:00

it sucks. it is only ever the negative things i remember, the times i was a jerk or an idiot or even just awkward. i never remember the times i was awesome or the things i might have done to make a person feel good about themselves. i always remember the things that people have said that remind me i am inadequate. i never believe the compliments.

those bad times, the times i was an ass, i just roll around in them and revel in the hateful feelings those memories give me.

i wish i had someone around to help me be more positive. positive people don't want to be around a negative jerk like me. hah!

2010-03-13T10:23:00.001-04:00

2010-03-13T10:14:00.002-04:00

2010-03-10T22:29:00.000-04:00

we won an award!

recording stories

2010-03-10T14:30:00.000-04:00

this is pure gold.

2010-03-07T12:31:00.002-04:00

i woke up this morning and you were a stranger to me
a stranger to me
it was the strangest thing
what passed before was like it had never been. like it had never, ever been
you were a stranger to me.

there used to be this bend in the road
a path between the hills and the sky
i thought that we could call it our own
and laugh at love and years going by

i woke up this morning and you were a stranger to me
a stranger to me
it was the strangest thing
what passed before was like it had never been. like it had never, ever been
you were a stranger to me.

i used to know the touch of your hand
the tiny lines that made up what you are
but lines have blurred, my mind draws a blank
i can't remember the shape of your heart

i woke up this morning and you were a stranger to me
a stranger to me
it was the strangest thing
what passed before was like it had never been. like it had never, ever been
you were a stranger to me.

honesty, as a policy, is often ill advised
and i'm glad i never told you the plans i had devised
where i would write my songs, and you would sing along
but would it be wrong to sing with one i do not recognize?

i woke up this morning and you were a stranger to me
a stranger to me
it was the strangest thing
what passed before was like it had never been. like it had never, ever been
you were a stranger to me.

ecma

2010-03-07T00:36:00.003-04:00

i really didn't have high expectations for this ecma weekend other than it would be nice to see everyone from away.

it has been such a nice time, though. thursday we played a pretty good show at cbu despite there not being much of a crowd. we sound pretty good these days owing to crazy practicing for the battle of the bands (which we won, by the way). i went to bunkers to see the grass, who were amazing. i liked it better than last time i saw them. their drummer is so solid and busy and awesome. dan b obviously destroys the bass guitar as well.

then i had to get to the casino to play to erin m's family. haha. what a time. it wasn't too bad actually. it gets hazy after this, i dropped my car off and headed back to bunkers where i proceeded to get drunk. we played sloppy and way too fast at the absolute end of the night - 2:45am or something. then me, hec, rob, catherine and dan b ended up going to the delta and hitting up the free booze party. it was fun and i met people from the internet! haha. as we left i was way too drunk and i was making a super ass of myself, which made me feel like shit all the next day.

so friday i tried to get some sleep, but kept getting woken up by various people who stayed over my house. i can't sleep well when people are over. i had to go to work at 1, and i think i may have even been a little drunk when i got there. i was kind of useless for that day, it's a shame because if i took the whole day off i could have seen carolyn play at the coffee shop. wah. as it was, i went to the coffee shop to see ruth m. after work and i was not disappointed. she was spectacular. instead of a bass she had a bass clarinet or something. i have such a music-crush on her.

later that night i played at maxwells which also went really well. there were more people there than i expected and we played kinda awesome. i got to play through a kickass gallien krueger and i wasn't drunk or anything. haha. afterward i went to see everyone in cars at the curling club.

their style has changed quite a bit from when i used to go see them but i still love it. adam has such a distinctive style of drumming. he uses really similar fills in every song which is great because i love them. haha. mike's voice has got a really pleasing sound to it, kind of soft and rounded, but there is a sharp part which makes it cut through. i love it when he does the higher notes and his voice starts to strain a bit. what is it about certain voices that just make you pleased to hear them? their newer songs are shorter and a bit poppier. whether or not the lyrics are lighter, they feel less dark musically.

i stuck around for most of the grass's set. it was not as crazy as the bunkers show but i still enjoyed it. it was so nice to see my friends, mel, rj, ryan, scott and everyone else. i was so hungover all i could do was eat chips and drink fountain pepsi so i ended up leaving and going to sleep.

today i got up early and did laundry at the folks', and then i went to the perk to see mike g. play solo. again i loved it. the tone of his voice came through even better in this venue. i would love to sing something with him someday. that is all i think about when i hear a singer i love - when can i sing with him/her? haha. he played one on the acoustic which i really enjoyed as well. he said he felt uncomfortable, but i thought it sounded great.

after that i picked up my mom and we headed to bunkers to see al tuck, ruth m., young river and c. bridge. al tuck i was not so interested in, i couldn't make out his vocals very well, i dunno if that is just the tone of his voice or what. i think i could get into his music but i'd have to be familiar with it first. lots of people whose taste in music i appreciate like the guy so i can only assume i would too.

ruth was awesome again, it was just her and that kelly girl singing backup. she dedicated maiden voyage to me again, and it made me giggle. our lives are eerily similar - people always say i remind them of her, and she told this story about going on tour with 9 smelly guys, and to top it all off, she just put out an album with regular versions and alternate versions of all of her songs.

young river. holy. watching this set made me feel so thankful that i know so many unbearably talented people. how did i ever convince zach to be in a band with me, let alone 3? they had such awesome dynamics and subtlety. the drummer had one of those cymbals with the rattley things in it that sustain forever, and it was just put to use in the most perfect fashion. then that made me think of devon, and how great and thoughtful his drum parts are, and then i just started thinking about all of the people i know and the music i get to see on at least a somewhat regular basis. and i just couldn't believe it. a little tear may have sprang into my eye. i loved this set. i want their album. i want to be in this band!

after them was c. bridge. all i care about with this band is ben f. his voice suits that style of music so well and has such a pretty sound! that song with "there's a cold breeze, that blows the leaves from the trees" - such a great chorus! i want to sing a song with him so bad. i like this band but i think they have not fully reached their potential.

afterward, i went to the civic center to play our last show. dan b was there, which made me slightly nervous even though he said he thought i was a good bass player. we did really good though, i think. i love my band, they are so good to work with. and i know stupid shit will never affect our band. we are friends and we work together well.

so afterward i came home and had a glass of wine and thought about all the awesome things i have seen this weekend. harry and courtney came over to play wii and after they left i started writing this post.

basically, this has been one of the awesomest days.

2010-03-02T11:48:00.001-04:00

2010-03-01T10:21:00.001-04:00

axe cop

2010-02-23T11:09:00.001-04:00

so good.

it's a comic written by a 5 year old kid, that his brother draws.

2010-02-21T21:53:00.002-04:00

more here!

2010-02-18T15:50:00.001-04:00

2010-02-01T13:18:00.002-04:00

2010-02-01T13:07:00.002-04:00

ah i guess i failed on my year-end recap. i was distracted by kitties! i'd really like to do one though. it's amazing how much i forget.

i am very sad lately. maybe it's winter. maybe it's job stress. i want to go back to school. would that make me happy?

this is one of the funniest things i've ever seen, though.

this is a must-see

2010-01-29T22:22:00.001-04:00

wonderful plot twist at the end.

eyes are open

2010-01-29T07:55:00.002-04:00

a few days ago (mommy was feeling protective):

yesterday:

battle

2010-01-29T02:19:00.000-04:00

what have i gotten myself into? can my fragile ego handle it?

possible kitty names

2010-01-18T10:01:00.003-04:00

maru
helo, starbuck, and captain adama
mal, zoe and wash
boris
merry, pippin and sam

kittens!

2010-01-18T09:48:00.003-04:00

my kitty had babies on saturday night! gillian and i were going to go to bunkers to see the grass. before we left the kitty was kind of acting weird, walking with her belly low to the ground, and then she went behind the couch and started meowing all weird. we were watching her and i knew it was baby time, but gillian thought she wasn't even pregnant. haha.

the internet told me i should leave her be for a bit, so i figured if i went to the bar for 2 hours she might have had them by then. when we came back i could hear little teeny meows! she had them in the pantry thing, and i think she was really freaked out. there were 2 babies, kind of crawling around and she was crouched a little way away kind of looking scared.

so i made a little nest of towels in this big tote thing i had and i put the kittens in there. then the mom came over and started to snuggle them. i was worried one of them was going to die because it was very cold and not meowing very much or moving.

the next day i checked and i touched them and they were warm and nursing so i was super happy. i left to drive gillian home, and when i got back i went and sat with my cat. she was purring and happy. then she got up to get some food, and when she did i saw there was a THIRD kitty! so stoked! i guess she had it in the night while i was asleep, and it was underneath her when i checked in the morning.

so now i have kitties! to snuggle and love for 3 months! i can't wait till they get fluffy and cute. right now they just kind of look like blobs. i still love them though. it's all i can think about!

i am going to keep one, and rob said he wants one. so i will have to try and find a home for one more. if they have the temperament of their mom, it should be very easy to find them homes, because she is the sweetest cat i ever met.

kitty decided to move the babies into my room this morning at 5:30AM. i was awoken to tiny mews. so awesome.

2010-01-08T22:37:00.002-04:00

ok seriously.

2010-01-07T16:58:00.000-04:00

a. dollhouse is an incredible mind bending show. jossy, why? why does everything have to get cancelled?

b. before the end of jan i will review my year. if not, how can i ever remember what i did?

2010-01-03T12:37:00.001-04:00

so much for that idea.

2009-12-30T10:41:00.001-04:00

going to try not drinking for a while.

2009-12-26T15:43:00.006-04:00

i am doing my traditional boxing day online shopping spree. i really oughtta break this tradition because i am broke. engrish t-shirts and hair dye (i'm really regressing here, up go the band posters on my walls)

i'm playing tonight at the upstairs in a songwriter's circle. that should be a nice time. i have been playing lots over the holidays but i wouldn't have it any other way. i am happiest when i am busy as can be. so i played 3 times at stoked, then again on the 23rd, tonight, tomorrow, and then on new years and jan 2. i love it.

i saw sean play at stoked this year. it was awesome. he is really one of the best songwriters i have heard. his voice is better now than ever. so impressive. it really made my christmas.

speaking of, christmas wasn't too bad. the kids were not insane and i got a hilarious framed picture of them with angry faces giving the finger. i really love it and it's on display in my apt. i got bass strings and arrested development season 1 (score!), and a large array of much needed socks. and other odds and ends. i was super stoked with the gifts i got to give to my family. i chipped in on a laptop for mom, that was a nice one. dad got an old fashioned weatherglass barometer, which, even if he can't use it is a really beautiful thing to have in the house.

so all in all, the holiday spirit is in full force, and i am excited that i don't have to go to work again till next year! my very first paid vacation... thanks, santa.

2009-12-21T09:14:00.003-04:00

this is part 1 in a 7 part movie review of the phantom menace - it's really freakin good and funny. it looks as though this guy made a better film than george lucas. the best part is toward the end where he demonstrates just how stupid the characters are compared to original star wars using a simple exercise.

2009-12-19T20:10:00.001-04:00

happy holidays to everyone!

2009-12-12T10:53:00.002-04:00

so when i was in junior high, we had a substitute for english for a while. he was a young man, dark hair and glasses, seemed fresh out of college. that is all i remember about him - other than that he was handsome, but that could be the influence of my nice memories. so we were doing a unit on poetry, and the young man noticed that i was very interested in the subject (maybe i was the only one paying attention, who knows.)

the next day after class, while everyone packed up he came over to my desk and handed me a bunch of photocopied sheets with poems on them, and tells me these are some of his personal favorites. i was delighted! out of this batch of poems, one poem really stuck with me. years afterward, i still remembered it and the last few paragraphs were etched in my brain.

i misplaced the bundle of poems after a while and kinda forgot about it, evey once in a while wishing i could remember the title or the author of the poem. a few months back i found the sheet and i was stoked! i read it a few times and decided i love it as much as i used to.

i wish i knew the name of that teacher. he was so fresh-faced and hopeful, i bet his attitude has changed since then. i wonder if he thinks that he can't get through to the kids or if he is jaded and bitter now. i wonder if he is still a teacher. i want to tell him how much his actions affected me, even now 10-12 years later.

funny story, yvette fife and i went on tour last december (i seriously can't believe it was a whole year ago), and we played in fredericton at a small bar on campus. steve was stoked that we were playing in alden nowlan house, we went around the whole thing and looked around, and i was reading the poems on the walls. i thought they were really cool but i never really thought much of it.

a few months later i dug out the poem again and finally noticed the author's name at the bottom - alden nowlan. i got a warm fuzzy feeling then.

anyway, this was just an excuse to get you to read that poem. enjoy!

smattering of thoughts

2009-12-05T20:37:00.003-04:00

played a wicked show last night in halifax. alright already are mind bogglingly good. harry and i were the seanny mac mega fanbase. double sushi weekend = win!

my vet-lady looks exactly like stephen merchant. i swear, it is distracting when she is telling me about health risks for the kitty etc.

speaking of kitties:

2009-11-23T15:27:00.002-04:00

so i'm 99% moved in now. i slept there the last few nights. it's really quiet. the kitty moved in with me, causing no small controversy at my sister's home (they are out of control). however, kitty seems very happy and i am glad of the company. having her roaming about last night making noises kind of kept me awake till 4am, my brain was half-listening to see if she was getting into anything she shouldn't. i don't yet have a shower installed... it is a long story, but i am really hoping that is resolved soon.
it is very messy in there, but i hope by the end of this week i will have everything put away, and the garbage will be gone and i will do a final major clean and i will be ready to exist normally in the new place. haha. i plan to have a potluck or something (it might have to be BYOP as i don't have very many plates!).
i will be glad when i can take a few evenings and just chill and be there and not have to be doing stuff constantly.

2009-11-23T15:26:00.000-04:00

2009-11-20T10:13:00.001-04:00

my shopping anxiety is starting to seriously become a problem.

2009-11-18T20:44:00.002-04:00

upon cleaning out my room to put things in boxes, i came upon a real-life, honest to god love letter. a very long one, in fact. written by a boy who loved me. and i had totally forgotten receiving it, or that it even existed.
i wonder what else i have lying around my house: relics of momentous occasions, things of exceedingly great importance at the time.
things that i have completely forgotten about.

moving

2009-11-18T20:37:00.002-04:00

tomorrow is stage 1 of moving day. i am going to get the majority of my stuff over to the new apartment. then on saturday i plan to move my bed and clothes and self over there. i'd rather start out on a weekend rather than having to get up for work from there right away, haha.
i'm inordinately nervous about the whole thing. i just hope it is nice and warm. the radiators are not working right now, which makes me nervous. i'll have to try to fix them.
but after painting and cleaning everything to the best of my abilities, i think it's going to be pretty cozy after all. i am learning what a large amount of things go into a normal house or apartment because i am missing so much of it (anyone have a table they don't need?).
i am looking forward to having people over and being in stumbling distance of bars. not looking forward to washing dishes without a dishwasher though!

2009-11-13T16:01:00.001-04:00

2009-11-07T09:48:00.001-04:00

painting the new apt!

grumpy is good

2009-11-04T09:45:00.002-04:00

this article explains why i am so clever:

"In contrast to those annoying happy types, miserable people are better at decision-making and less gullible, his experiments showed.

He asked volunteers to watch different films and dwell on positive or negative events in their life, designed to put them in either a good or bad mood.

Next he asked them to take part in a series of tasks, including judging the truth of urban myths and providing eyewitness accounts of events.

Those in a bad mood outperformed those who were jolly - they made fewer mistakes and were better communicators.

Professor Forgas said: "Whereas positive mood seems to promote creativity, flexibility, co-operation and reliance on mental shortcuts, negative moods trigger more attentive, careful thinking, paying greater attention to the external world."

The study also found that sad people were better at stating their case through written arguments, which Forgas said showed that a "mildly negative mood may actually promote a more concrete, accommodative and ultimately more successful communication style".

His earlier work shows the weather has a similar impact on us - wet, dreary days sharpened memory, while bright sunny spells make people forgetful. "

good day

2009-11-02T17:31:00.003-04:00

i get giddy when certain people give me compliments. i smiled the whole way home from work.

also, i finished the final confessions of georgia nicholson book, it was great and she FINALLY got together with dave the laugh. i was ready to kill everyone! what a great series. i love books.

indie rock videos all look the same

2009-10-30T13:18:00.001-03:00

seriously i've seen like 5 videos lately with people dressed as animals, frolicking in the forest. despite that, here is a band i really like from calgary:

how small things are

2009-10-28T18:34:00.002-03:00

this is the most amazing thing i've seen lately.

(and surprisingly similar to a panic attack i had once.)

2009-10-24T21:55:00.001-03:00

dear greg house:
after 3 seasons, you are frustrating, you are impossible. but it only makes me love you more.
am i cameron? but she is so annoying!

2009-10-22T18:55:00.001-03:00

i may have to quit playing guitar:

2009-10-20T16:47:00.001-03:00

no amount of chocolate could salvage my crappy mood today.
overwhelmed to the max.

2009-10-14T19:58:00.001-03:00

so i guess i am getting an apartment at the beginning of november!
exciting times. a little scary too, with all the different-ness and the being alone with my thoughts all the time thing. but i can have a music room and put national geographic maps on my walls and invite touring bands i like to sleep on my couch (by the way, if you know where i can get a nice couch...)

2009-10-05T13:25:00.001-03:00

THE RECORDING
INDUSTRY WILL
DESTROY YOU.

need a little luck.

2009-09-28T15:26:00.002-03:00

cross your fingers for me, please!

things might get different. things might get good!

2009-09-18T22:42:00.001-03:00

if i leave my life for you, then you will learn what i am like.
and i will learn i was mistaken
about you.

2009-09-16T18:41:00.002-03:00

SIA album is mixed and mastered and ready to be sent away tomorrow! weeee!
double album (18 songs!) clocks in at a little over 54 minutes.

tattoos

2009-09-13T18:33:00.002-03:00

becky m fixed all my tattoos:

star before:

gear after:

treble clef before:

after:

dragon before:

after:

2009-09-06T19:44:00.001-03:00

see more Funny Graphs

2009-09-04T17:28:00.003-03:00

i have been thinking about things people have said to me.
compliments, insults.
how i felt about them at the time.
and how i might think about them if it happened now.

i think i'd feel different.

i am changing. but everyone does.
why notice it now?

i'm glad i am though.

i am all abstract and vague these days.

2009-09-03T21:41:00.000-03:00

you are my uriah heep.

graphjam.com

2009-09-03T17:35:00.001-03:00

almost done

2009-09-03T11:36:00.001-03:00

i am very excited about the static in action recording!

incredible edibles

2009-08-30T21:19:00.005-03:00

pictures i took in my dim kitchen.

some veg from my garden:

and my very first pie! i was nervous about pies because everyone said crusts are very hard to make, but it wasn't too bad, and it came out AMAZING. best crust ever! flaky and tender and delicious.

2009-08-30T09:31:00.001-03:00

i am going to be 25 in 2 weeks.

this girl is amazing

2009-08-22T21:39:00.001-03:00

2009-08-19T19:48:00.002-03:00

lamebook = sometimes depressing, sometimes incredibly hilarious.